Today
Today started boring and evolved into a shitty shitfest tainted with deepseated emotional suppression and a bunch of bullshit. Then I left work and things got a little better.
100 facts about me
1) Self harmed? yes, but because I’m clumsy.
2) Got into a real fight? Not yet.
3) Been too depressed to move out of your bed? Yes
4) Tried to commit suicide? Never
5) Had to lie to EVERYONE about how you felt? Very often.
6) Watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting? More than once
7) Talked yourself out of serious trouble? I used to.
8) Accused someone of using you? No
9) Shoplifted? I think I have forgot something on my head and walked out, like sunglasses or something.
10) Gotten drunk/high? drunk a couple times.
11) Been to a concert where your favourite artist was playing? Never been to a concert.
12) Skipped doing homework to play a video game? Countless times
(Right now) Are you:
13) Suicidal? No
14) Bored? just tired
15) Avoiding someone? no
16) Avoiding some task? is sleeping a task?
17) Depressed? Not currently
18) Crying? No
19) Annoyed with a friend? not really
20) Worried and confused about something important to you? always
Do you:
21) Get depressed easily? More like randomely than easily, but I suppose yes.
22) Get jealous/envious easily? I haven’t really had the opportunity to yet.
23) Feel listening to music can take your mind off things? It usually focuses things and makes them better/worse.
24) Worry about messing about your relationships a lot? If that means messing up, yes, pretty much all the time.
25) Try hard in all your classes at school? No, if I did I would be an A student, but I didn’t and now I’m a failure who works at Walmart, failed out of community college and lives with his parents.
26) Go out drinking? If my friends invite me or my girlfriend brings me.
27) Smoke cigarettes? No
28) Smoke weed? No
29) Do any hard drugs? No
30) If you said yes to 28 but no to 29, why? ——-
31) Believe in God/Belong to a religion of your own free will? Christian, it’s some pimp shit.
32) Avoid people you care about because you feel you will only hurt them? I have in the past.
33) Agree that self harm numbs emotional pain? Don’t know, haven’t tried it.
34) Believe people deserve second chances? Sometimes, but there are things that are irrevocable and cannot be forgiven, I believe the answer to those are execution.
35) Agree with ‘An eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth’? It might not have to be equal, but you have to react with enough force to punish and prevent.
36) Think things will get better? Could get better could get worse, I’m feeling pretty good so probably worse.
37) Feel afraid that you have done wrong and will eventually be punished? No, I know that I’m a good person and that bad things always happen to bad people so I’m screwed.
38) (Be honest) Do you judge people who think differently to you? (seriously, be honest) Yes, it doesn’t mean I think poorly of them. But you can’t compare people to yourself without judging them.
Preference in boyfriend/girlfriend:
39) Long hair OR short hair? Long
40) (For Girls one) nice smile OR nice abs?
41) (For Guys one) nice smile OR nice chest? Smile is important, but it’s nice to have both.
42) Shy OR open? There’s nothing wrong with shy but it helps to have a girl who can get me moving.
43) Eyes OR body? Eyes.
44) Religious OR non-religious? I’m not too worried about it.
45) Caring OR non-restricting of you? They have to restrict you to care?
46) Straight edge OR non-straight edge? Non-straight edge, I’m boring enough for the both of us.
47) Piercings OR no piercings? I’m not a fan of piercings.
48) Tattoos OR no tattoos? Either or.
49) Quiet stay-at-home type OR party type? As long as she’s willing to hang out with my friends, either.
50) Has friends you get along with OR has parents you get along with? I get along with everyone, so both.
Would you:
51) Drink alcohol until you were drunk? Yes
52) Smoke weed? I might eventually.
53) Smoke cigarettes? No
54) Get even with someone who betrayed you? Probably
55) Forgive a boyfriend/girlfriend who deeply hurt you? Yes, I’m good at conceiling negative emotions.
56) Attempt to kill yourself if everything fails you? Never
57) Keep your faith (any religious view) no matter what? Yes
58) Join a band as a part time activity? I might
59) Feel sorry for someone who is being affected negatively from alcohol/drug abuse? Yes
60) Stand up for your beliefs if someone strongly goes against them? Yes
61) Go vegetarian for a month to see what is was like? No, I tried to quite soda and it made me very sick.
62) Fight someone who was harassing your friends/family? Yeah, I would probably just beat the shit out of them.
63) Edit photos of yourself before posting them online? No
64) Put up with friends who constantly hated against something you believed in/supported? Yeah, I’d be a dick to them if they pissed me off though.
65) Be friends with someone who was nice to you, but a cunt to other people? Yeah, I have.
66) Not like someone simply because your friend(s) didn’t like them? I’m nice to everyone.
67) Lie to someone close to you because you don’t want them put up with your problems? I’ve done it.
68) Starve yourself so you fit some certain clothes? Not for that purpose, but sometimes I just randomely don’t eat.
69) Get surgery on any part of you? If yes then which part of you? Only if it was necessary.
70) Sleep naked? I like to
You can only choose one:
71) Black or Orange? Black
72) Metalcore OR Post-Hardcore? I don’t know what these are
73) Cellphone or Computer? computer
74) Chocolate milk OR Coke? Chocolate milk
75) Tumblr OR Friends? Friends
76) Apple OR PC? PC
77) TV Shows OR Movies? movies
78) Old bands OR new Bands? old bands
79) Pop-Punk OR Alternative Rock? Alternative rock
80) Reading OR Listening to music? Listening to music
81) Coke OR Pepsi? Coke
82) Staying who you are OR changing yourself drastically? I’ve stayed relatively the same my whole life, according to my friends, it’s working out okay.
83) Breakdown OR Clean vocal bridge? These are music words I believe, clearly vocal bridge is.
84) Jonny Craig OR Kellin Quinn? Define your reason for your choice. Don’t know what this means.
85) Ronnie OR Craig? Define your reason for your choice. I don’t know
86) Your life as a comedy OR Your life as a documentary? Comedy
87) Go to outer space OR Go all around Europe? Europe, space sucks
88) Shoes OR Shirts? Shoes, I don’t like wearing shirts.
89) Chelsea Grin OR Suicide Silence? What is this?
90) Drop out of school to get a job OR stay at school and finish your education. Define your reason for your choice. Depends how much my job would pay.
Almost over:
91) So far have you told 90 truths? And for fuck sake be honest. Yep
92) Are you quiet about your social life with your family? No
93) Do you want to travel when you are older? Yes
94) Would you let go of people who mean the most to you to follow your dreams? No
95) Did you notice there are no sex related questions? Not until this question.
96) Rather be the opposite gender? No, but I would be fucking awesome at being a girl.
97) What will you name your son/daughter? Nicholas Jacob Downs, or Jillian Evelyn Downs … are names that I like.
98) Do you get harassed more than most people do? I don’t really get harrassed.
99) What band do you hate the most? Define your reason. Sugarland, more than anything else.
100) What makes you a bad person in your mind? I’m an awesome person, but deliberately hurting people would make someone a bad person if thats what the question was.
